PART 3
He was going to call me.
For eleven years, whenever something went wrong with money, I was the person he called. When his gas card stopped working, I fixed it. When his mother’s pharmacy payment wouldn’t go through, I handled it. When he wanted to take his buddies out for dinner but his own account was empty, he had my card ready.
He had become so accustomed to my money that he had forgotten it belonged to someone.
My phone vibrated in the pocket of my apron.
Faron Mott.
I looked at the screen.
Then I turned it facedown on the counter.
The phone stopped.
A few seconds later, it started again.
Peg was standing beside the fryer, watching me.
“You gonna get that?” she asked.
“No.”
She looked toward the boat tent.
“Good. Those pierogies aren’t going to cook themselves.”
I picked up my spatula.
But I couldn’t help watching.
Faron was now standing with his back to his buddies, talking loudly into his phone.
I couldn’t hear every word, but I heard enough.
“Angela! What did you do?”
He paused.
Then he shouted again.
“You can’t just shut everything off!”
One of his friends turned around.
That was when I knew the real embarrassment had begun.
Not because his card had been declined.
But because, for the first time in eleven years, the people around him were starting to understand that the money he bragged about wasn’t his.
My phone vibrated again.
This time it was a text.
FARON: Pick up the damn phone.
I didn’t answer.
Another message appeared.
FARON: You are making me look like an idiot in front of everybody.
I almost laughed.
He had spent eleven years making me look like a fool, and now he was upset because a card machine had told the truth.
A minute later, I saw him walking toward the food stand.
His fishing buddies stayed near the boat.
He came straight to my table.
“Angela.”
I kept turning the pierogies.
“Afternoon, Faron.”
“Don’t do that.”
“Do what?”
“Act like you don’t know what’s happening.”
I flipped another pierogi.
“Sounds like you’re having trouble with your card.”
His jaw tightened.
“You closed it.”
I finally looked up.
“Yes.”
“You had no right.”
I set the spatula down.
“Actually, I did.”
He leaned closer.
“That card has my name on it.”
“And my account number.”
He looked around to see whether anybody was listening.
A few customers were standing nearby. Peg was pretending to arrange napkins, but I knew she was listening to every word.
Faron lowered his voice.
“Listen, Ange. I need that money. I put a deposit on that boat.”
“Then you should probably use your own money.”
His face turned red.
“You know I don’t have that kind of money.”
I nodded.
“That’s why you shouldn’t have promised the salesman fifteen hundred dollars.”
He stared at me.
Then he said something I hadn’t expected.
“You’re doing this because of my mother.”
I blinked.
“My goodness, Faron. I didn’t know Earline was buying the boat.”
He stepped closer.
“Don’t bring my mother into this.”
I looked at him for a long moment.
“Faron, your mother has had a card in her purse for eleven years. Every Friday, she got her hair done. She bought groceries, clothes, perfume, and whatever else she wanted. I paid every bill. I never once asked her to thank me.”
“She needed help.”
“So did I.”
He looked away.
For a moment, I thought he might remember something.
Maybe the nights I came home from the diner with aching feet and counted tips at the kitchen table.
Maybe the winter I worked extra shifts because his mother’s card had gone over its limit.
Maybe the time I postponed replacing my own refrigerator because he wanted new fishing equipment.
But Faron didn’t remember those things.
Or perhaps he remembered and simply didn’t care.
“You’ve changed,” he finally said.
I picked up the spatula again.
“No, Faron. I just stopped paying for the privilege of being treated badly.”
He stood there, breathing hard.
Then he pointed a finger at me.
“You’re going to regret this.”
Peg appeared beside me.
“She might regret burning a batch of pierogies, Faron. But I don’t think she’ll regret closing a credit card.”
A couple of customers laughed.
Faron looked at Peg, then at me.
He turned and walked away.
I watched him cross the fairground toward the boat tent.
His buddies were waiting.
One of them said something.
Faron shook his head.
Then all four men walked away from the red bass boat.
I turned back to my work.
But my hands were shaking.
Not because I was afraid of him.
Because I had just realized something.
For eleven years, I had believed that saying no would destroy my marriage.
Now the marriage was gone.
And saying no was the first thing that had made me feel like myself again.
At around three o’clock, Peg brought me a bottle of water.
“You all right, honey?”
I nodded.
“Just tired.”
She leaned against the counter.
“You know, I’ve been wanting to tell you something for a long time.”
I looked at her.
“What’s that?”
“Every time you came in here looking exhausted, I’d ask if things were okay at home. And every time, you’d tell me Faron was having a rough month.”
I lowered my eyes.
“Well, he was.”
“Angela, that man had a rough eleven years.”
I laughed despite myself.
Peg shook her head.
“I’m serious. You worked overtime, brought food home for his mother, paid those cards, and still came in here every morning before daylight. You know what I always wondered?”
“What?”
“Who was taking care of you?”
I didn’t answer.
Because the truth was, I didn’t know.
Peg squeezed my shoulder.
“Go home after we close. Don’t worry about the cleanup. I’ll handle it.”
“I can’t leave you with everything.”
“Angela.”
She waited until I looked at her.
“You’re allowed to let somebody help you.”
Those words stayed with me the rest of the afternoon.
I got home just after six.
The house was quiet.
Faron had moved out months earlier, but his fishing photographs were still hanging in the hallway. His old boots were still beside the back door. There was a faded jacket hanging on the hook he used to claim as his.
I had left everything exactly where it was because I hadn’t known what to do with it.
That evening, I finally took the photographs down.
One by one.
The first showed us at Lake Arthur, both of us smiling beside a little aluminum boat.
The second was from our tenth anniversary.
The third was from a Christmas party at Earline’s house.
I looked at that one for a long time.
Earline was wearing a red sweater and a gold necklace.
I remembered buying that necklace for her.
It had cost $340.
I remembered because I had skipped buying myself a winter coat that year.
I put the photographs into a cardboard box.
Then I found an envelope underneath them.
It was from the bank.
I almost threw it away without opening it.
But something made me stop.
The envelope contained an old statement from one of my credit cards.
I sat at the kitchen table and began looking through the transactions.
Gas station.
Grocery store.
Restaurant.
Pharmacy.
Hair salon.
Casino.
Fishing supply store.
Another hair salon.
I kept turning pages.
Then I saw a transaction that made me stop.
$2,850 — NORTH STAR JEWELERS.
I stared at it.
I remembered that purchase.
Earline had received a diamond bracelet for her sixty-fifth birthday.
Faron told me it was a family gift.
I had asked him how he paid for it.
He said he had saved money from repairing cars.
But the date on the statement was right there.
The bracelet had been charged to my account.
I kept searching.
Another $1,200 at a jewelry store.
A $760 payment at a hotel.
A $1,400 charge at a casino resort.
Then something even stranger.
There were several transactions I didn’t recognize.
All of them had happened during the last two years.
I reached for my calculator.
The original $80,000 estimate was suddenly looking very conservative.
I began adding everything.
$80,000.
Then another $6,200.
Then $3,800.
Then another $4,500.
By the time I finished, the number on my calculator was $96,417.
I leaned back in my chair.
Ninety-six thousand four hundred and seventeen dollars.
Almost a hundred thousand dollars.
I thought about all the things I could have done with that money.
I could have replaced the old roof.
I could have paid off more of the mortgage.
I could have taken a vacation.
I could have put some away for retirement.
Instead, I had paid for gas, casino trips, fishing equipment, restaurant meals, and a woman’s weekly hair appointments.
I closed my eyes.
Then I heard my phone ring.
Earline.
I almost let it go to voicemail.
But I answered.
“Hello?”
“Angela, what in the world is wrong with you?”
I put the statement down.
“Good evening to you too, Earline.”
“Don’t get smart with me. My card isn’t working.”
“That’s unfortunate.”
“Unfortunate? I was at the salon this afternoon. I had my appointment. They told me the payment was declined.”
I looked at the old statement.
“Maybe you should pay with your own card.”
There was silence.
Then she laughed.
It was the same laugh I had heard outside the courthouse.
“Angela, don’t be ridiculous. I’ve been using that card for years.”
“I know.”
“Faron said you were just upset about the divorce.”
“I’m not upset about the divorce, Earline.”
“Then what is this?”
I took a breath.
“This is me paying my own bills.”
She became quiet.
Then her voice changed.
“Listen, dear. I know you’ve been through a difficult time. Divorce is hard on women, especially women who have been married as long as you. But you don’t need to take your feelings out on the family.”
I almost smiled.
The family.
That word had always been used whenever they needed something.
When they needed money, I was family.
When they needed a ride, I was family.
When Earline wanted a new refrigerator, I was family.
But when I needed help, suddenly I was a woman who needed to understand her responsibilities.
“Your son and I are divorced,” I said.