This time, beneath the ribbon, I noticed a small cream envelope.

My name was written across the front.

Mary.

The handwriting wasn’t James’s.

I opened it anyway.

Inside was a card.

The first sentence made the room tilt around me.

“Darling, you won’t believe why I had to disappear. Adrian lied to you.”

I read it twice.

Then a third time.

Adrian lied to you.

There were more instructions beneath it.

“Act normally. If you still have the yellow dress, bring it. Take the roses to the old station at 11:00. Do exactly as I’m asking.”

I looked at the kitchen clock.

10:17.

Forty-three minutes.

My first thought came from the twenty-three-year-old woman still hidden somewhere inside me.

James is alive.

My second thought was unbearable.

If James had been alive all these years, then every Christmas I had spent alone, every anniversary, every birthday, every ordinary evening in my little house had happened while my husband existed somewhere else.

Without me.

I looked at the card again.

Adrian lied.

Adrian had remained loosely connected to my life for decades.

He attended both my parents’ funerals.

He mailed Christmas cards every year until his hands grew too shaky to write.

And he was the man who had sat across from me at twenty-three years old and told me James was almost certainly dead.

I reached for the telephone.

Then stopped.

Act normally.

Why would James demand secrecy?

Why not simply call?

Why not knock on my front door?

And if James hadn’t written these instructions, who else could possibly know about the yellow dress?

I hurried upstairs.

At the back of my closet sat an old cedar chest.

Inside, beneath layers of tissue paper, was the dress.

The yellow had faded over the decades, but it was still unmistakable.

I lifted it carefully.

Then my fingers found three clumsy stitches near the side seam.

Suddenly I smiled.

James had sewn those.

The night after our wedding, I had torn the dress on a nail sticking out from my parents’ porch.

James proudly announced that he could repair it.

He couldn’t.

His stitches wandered crookedly across the fabric, tightening one side into an ugly little wrinkle.

I laughed so hard that evening he threatened to divorce me before we reached forty-eight hours of marriage.

Now I looked at those crooked stitches.

Then I thought about the badly folded paper rose downstairs.

James had always been excellent with things requiring strength.

Engines.

Tools.

Fences.

But anything involving patience or delicate hands?

Hopeless.

Whoever folded that flower had hands exactly like his.

At 10:42, I left the house.

The yellow dress rested over one arm.

The enormous bouquet filled the other.

The old train station was only a short distance away.

Passenger trains hadn’t stopped there for decades.

The town had eventually restored the building into a historical site, but I had avoided it my entire adult life.

I had not stepped inside since the morning James left.

Until now.

I stood beneath the old station clock holding fifty-six roses.

In that moment, I felt twenty-three again.

Not young.

Just terrified.

At precisely eleven o’clock, an elderly man slowly rose from a bench near the far wall.

For one impossible second, my heart stopped.

He was thin.

Stooped.

Ancient.

I allowed myself to believe.

Then he removed his cap.

“Mary.”

I recognized him immediately.

“Adrian?”

He was carrying an old olive-green military duffel bag.

Across the faded fabric was James’s name.

I nearly dropped the bouquet.

“Mary, please—”

“Where is he?”

Adrian stopped.

“Where is James?”

His eyes closed briefly.

And somehow I already knew.

“Is he alive?”

I forced the question out.

“No,” Adrian answered.

“No, Mary. He isn’t.”

I had believed my husband dead for fifty-six years.

That answer should not have destroyed me.

But for forty-three minutes that morning, James had lived again.

And now Adrian had taken him away for the second time.

I shoved the card against Adrian’s chest.

“Then who wrote this?”

He stared at it.

“I did.”

My stomach turned.

“You wrote this?”

“Yes.”

“You wrote in my husband’s voice and made me believe James was alive?”

“I know what I did.”

“Why?”

“Because I needed you to come.”

“You could have called.”

“You wouldn’t have come if you knew it was me.”

I stared at him.

“You gave me my husband back for an hour just so you could get me here.”

His hands trembled against the strap of the duffel.

“I’m sorry.”

“No.”

I raised my hand.

“You don’t get to say that yet.”

Then I pulled the paper rose from my pocket.

“Where did this come from?”

Adrian reached toward it.

I immediately pulled it away.

“Don’t touch it.”

His hand fell.

“James made it.”

Everything inside me went still.

“You told me James died in an explosion.”

Adrian looked toward the abandoned tracks.

“That was the lie.”

My heart leaped again.

He immediately shook his head.

“The attack happened. James was there. So was I. But neither of us died in the explosion.”

“What happened?”

“We were captured.”

The station seemed to disappear around me.

Adrian continued.

“James was badly wounded before they took us. But he survived the attack.”

“How long?”

“A few weeks.”

A few weeks.

For fifty-six years I had comforted myself with the idea that James died instantly.

Quickly.

Painlessly.

That he never knew what happened.

But he had lived for weeks.

He had been hurt.

Afraid.

Far from home.

And I had never known.

“You were with him?”

“Almost every day.”

I lifted the paper flower.

“He made this there?”

Adrian nodded.

“He found a scrap of yellow paper. After folding it, he held it up and said it was probably the worst flower anyone had ever made.”

Despite everything, a broken laugh escaped me.

“It is.”

“I told him the same thing.”

Adrian almost smiled.

“He gave it to me a few days before he died. He told me that if I made it home and he didn’t, I had to give it to you.”

Adrian’s voice softened.

“He said, ‘I promised her yellow roses. This is the best I can do.’”

I stared at the crooked little flower.

James had made it for me.

During his final weeks.

“What happened to him?”

“He grew weaker. His wound became worse. There wasn’t proper treatment.”

“That’s not enough.”

I looked directly at Adrian.

“I have waited fifty-six years. Tell me how my husband died.”

Adrian’s hands tightened.

Then he said,

“James made me promise something.”

“What?”

“He told me that if I survived and he didn’t, I should tell you he died during the original attack. Quickly. In the explosion.”

My mouth went dry.

“He told you to lie?”

“Yes.”

“Why?”

“Because he loved you.”

I almost laughed at the cruelty of that answer.

Adrian continued.

“He didn’t want you imagining him wounded or captured. He didn’t want you spending the rest of your life picturing what those weeks were like. He wanted you to believe it happened instantly.”

I stepped backward.

“So he decided what I could handle.”

“He was twenty-three, Mary.”

“So was I.”

Adrian fell silent.

That was what hurt most.

James had decided, out of love, that I was too fragile for the truth.

And in trying to spare me, he had taken away something that belonged to me.

The right to know the final chapter of my own husband’s life.

“Did he talk about me?” I finally asked.

Adrian’s expression softened.

“All the time.”

“What did he say?”

He looked down at James’s duffel.

“That conversation will take longer than we have standing here.”

“Then start walking.”

I pointed outside.

“You’re telling me everything.”

We began walking toward a veterans’ center a few blocks away.

Adrian carried James’s duffel.

I carried the roses.

Halfway there, I suddenly stopped.

“One more question.”

Adrian turned.

“Did James ever change his mind?”

His eyes dropped.

That was answer enough.

“Adrian.”

He said nothing.

“Did James ever tell you not to lie?”

Finally, he whispered,

“Yes.”

My chest tightened.

“When?”

“Near the end.”

“What exactly did he say?”

Adrian looked as though the fifty-six years he had carried suddenly settled onto his shoulders all at once.

“He said, ‘Tell her I was here.’”

My breath caught.

“He told me not to let you believe he simply vanished. He wanted you to know he survived the attack.”

Adrian wiped his eyes.

“And later, closer to the end, he changed his mind completely.”

“What did he say?”