When she heard me, she turned around.
Then she smiled.
Not warmly.
More like a stranger acknowledging someone in an elevator.
“Good. You’re home.”
She dropped the garbage bags onto my bed.
“You need to start packing.”
I stared at her.
“Packing for what?”
“To move out.”
I thought she was joking.
She wasn’t.
“You’re eighteen now,” she continued. “And I need this room.”
A cold feeling moved through my body.
“Move out where? Dad has only been gone three weeks.”
“That’s exactly why this needs to happen.”
She crossed her arms.
“Eric is moving in this weekend. He needs somewhere to put his things.”
I stared at her.
“Eric?”
“My boyfriend.”
I gripped the dresser Dad had refinished for me when I was fourteen.
“Your boyfriend?”
Margaret’s expression hardened.
“Dad died three weeks ago. How do you already have a boyfriend?”
The polite mask she had worn for years disappeared instantly.
“Your father is gone,” she snapped. “I’m forty-three years old. I’m still young. I’m not going to spend the rest of my life dressed in black just to make you comfortable.”
I couldn’t believe I was looking at the same woman Dad had trusted.
Finally, I said,
“I’ll leave. Just give me time to find somewhere to stay.”
“Good.”
She picked up one of the garbage bags and shoved it toward me.
“Start with the closet.”
Then she walked out.
That evening, I locked myself in the bathroom and called Naomi.
She answered almost immediately.
“Can I sleep on your couch?”
There was a pause.
Then her voice softened.
“For how long?”
“I don’t know. Maybe a week. I’ll figure something out.”
“What happened?”
“Margaret wants me out.”
“She what?”
“Her boyfriend is moving in.”
“Emilia.”
“I know.”
“She can’t do that. Your dad died three weeks ago.”
“Apparently she can.”
I heard Naomi moving around on the other end.
“Come over tomorrow after class. Bring whatever fits in a suitcase. My mom can help if you need a ride.”
“I don’t want to be a problem.”
“You’re not a problem. You’re my friend. Say okay.”
I swallowed.
“Okay.”
After we hung up, I stayed on the bathroom floor.
That was when I heard Margaret through the wall.
Her voice was soft.
Almost affectionate.
“…soon now, honey. It’s been so long since anyone made me feel like this…”
Then she laughed.
I frowned.
At the time, I was too exhausted to think about what those words might mean.
I went back to my room.
I packed my mother’s necklace.
Three sweaters.
Two pairs of jeans.
Some school things.
Then I walked into the hallway and took Dad’s framed photograph from the shelf.
I carried it back to my room.
That night, I slept on top of the covers with my clothes still on, holding his picture against my chest.
I told myself I only needed to survive until I finished packing.
I had no idea Margaret wasn’t going to give me that much time.
The following afternoon, I was walking home from class when something pink floated past the second-floor window of our building.
I stopped.
It was my sweater.
It landed in the bushes.
Then a pair of jeans came flying out.
Then one sneaker.
Then the other.
Books crashed onto the grass.